Friendship!

When has a friendship gotten so badly beaten up that it’s just enough. When its gone so far that it’s just nothing left to fight for, when the desire to fight back is there, when the desire to fight harder is there, but the energy just isn’t there anymore. When enough just is enough, when it’s had a few too many punches and a few to hard punches. When all I wanna do is hit him right in the face, as hard as I possibly can, just to make him understand that I’m right here, right here in front of him, right there for him every day!

All he'll ever have to do is ask and I’ll be there closer and sooner than he realize! So maybe it’s time to once and for all do what I’ve thought about so many times but never ever wanted to do and just throw in the towel, just leave it, just don’t care anymore and once and for all just walk away and never look back! I really don’t even think you know how much I care, how much I’m always there for you, how much I think about you and how you are really doing. But what I would just want you to understand is that you cannot, no matter how much you try or how badly you want, suppress and deny the fact that I’m already in your life and nothing will ever change that! It’s a joke that you even call this a friendship, do you really think that you can just not keep in touch for years, barley wanting to see me when I’m in town and still calling that to be friends?

You got to work for every single relationship, they don’t just happened, you got to fight and it’s about time you once and for all realize that! I’ve had enough of these games, going on like this is not a friendship and it isn’t worth a damn for me!

But unfortunatley the really shitty thing about all of this is that you’ll always be on my list, you will always be there somewhere in the background and you will always be someone I care about and I'll always be there for you and I don’t think there will ever be anything I can do to change that!

So do you really want me to let go?